Once again come full circle

Once again I learn that I cannot find happiness through others. I had figured this out before. I occasionally lose my way. Freedom and independence is what makes me happy. I have to focus and force myself to get more independent.

I find myself kind of lost this morning. I am at a fork in the road. This is brought on by a job rejection. Others choosing OR not choosing me. My employer choosing or not choosing me. Fake happiness.

I need to reinvent myself and find the peace.

Not getting the job has created some peace. I never really wanted to start a new job. I wanted more free time. I think that I really do want less responsibilities anyway.

Focus on my real goal: Staying employed for a few years!