Negative thoughts and insecurities

Yesterday's ride.

Started fantastic. I was on the bike right before 5am. Quiet, cool, moist from the previos days rain. I was comfortable, and strong. I ended up to my turn around point as the sun was coming up. The sun didn't make its presence really known until I was near my halfway mark.

I was back at the house well before 8am. I ate two PB & jelly sandwiches, and refilled my water bottles. I went back out and felt pretty fine. I struggled with the indegestion a bit. On the way back I collapsed. I stopped a couple of times. Not felling good at all. I ran out of water and had to refill. Having to take a shit after like 50 miles didn't help either.

Next time: I think that I will refuel with (1) PB sandwhich, I will start using gels on the ride. I might even start earlier. I am not sure it is the heat or what.

Anyway that is my third 100 miler - Oh and I ran 3 miles, well I ran and walked three miles. And it was raining to make it feel easier on me.

I have not had a day off in three weeks. I am going to take today off. I am going to sun.