Tired of studying, ready to train for tris!

I have five weeks left of school and am currently working about twenty hours a week. But I don't have any free time since I spend my time studying. My brain is similar to my body. I am not an athlete just like I am not a scholar. To excel in athletic events takes a 100% total commitment from me. Academics mirrors my athleticism. I do well, but I might invest double, to ten times what other people invest. What I am trying to say is that I have put a lot of effort, time and money into this education. Since I have to commit 100% to tri's to do well and I have to commit 100% to school to do well, I had to give up triathlon (well not exactly, but mostly).

I am soooo looking forward to having some free time to do what others are doing. Here I have been either not working or working part-time for the past five years. I have been so envious of people and the free time they have had to do triathlons or whatever or just sitting around wasting time.

So now that school will soon be over, I am having a hard time swallowing how that I feel that I'm wasting my last bit of freedom studying something that I am sick of studying. Most people would love to have had the freedom to do what they want for a period of years w/o financial or lifestyle consequences. Hopefully one day I will feel that it was defiantly worth it.

Because right now I am having what amounts to greedy feelings, I am talking with firms to capture employment that will coincide with graduation (which will suck up the free time that I now use for studying). Why? So that I can make money to give to charities and such? No, so that I buy some expensive stuff that I don't really need.